A year ago I discovered TRP, I changed my whole life, moved to a new city got a new job, rented a new place, read books, lifting, started talking to people.

Now I'm a good conversationalist, people enjoy talking to me but that's mainly because I use the tip in Carnegie's book, "make everyone seem interesting". I listen more than I talk, I'm good with women because I'm generally funny and can keep em talking for a long time and keep it fun, because they do the talking

But I have a problem, sometimes well, most of the time I feel I cant communicate my ideas well, people have often said that to me and I've noticed, I tend to repeat myself, midway through the sentence I realize what I say doesn't make sense, I feel like whenever I speak a lot, at some point I lose "focus" and I just ramble, some idea gets through, yes but not what I have to say.

It has evolved to the point where I have to write down a small script before having a phone conversation with someone and try to stick to it to the best of my skills, but if the conversation drags out for too long I feel like sometimes I answer out of instinct, the first thing that comes into my head instead of forming coherent ideas.

Same thing happens whenever someone asks me something out of the blue. The other day my boss asked me about the status of some repairs we had to do. I noticed my problem, paused, started thinking, spoke in clear articulated words and explained what happened, then he asked another question and I answered, then another and I started to ramble, in the end he mostly got what I meant but, I feel like I can't explain myself well.

I do tend to talk alone sometimes, but even then when I practice saying to myself (no one else) things that happened that same day, I start to ramble, change the subject, then change it again, then return, then change it then forget what I was saying and can't coherently connect that with what I started to say.

I'm generally an honest person, but not by choice I literally can not lie, because often when you lie you have to come up with the lie on the spot, and I'm just unable to do that, the only instances where I can lie is when I have time to prepare beforehand and practice infront of a mirror

I'm way better at writting because I have time to think what I try to say, but in my job sometimes there is no time to think you have to speak right then and there and I feel like its in those situations when my problem shows

It's frustrating, in the past few months I've avoided talking for long periods of time instead ask mostly questions.

Has anyone gone through this? Or does anyone know at least what kind of disorder or disease it is?