Backstory: I was a total social reject from the 7th grade all the way to ending highschool, I was always taught that I was special, I was smarter than everyone else and everything would come my way.

Because of this, I didnt ever try hard and got very lazy. I started eating what I wanted all the time, stole money from my beloved granny, manipulated friends and didnt care about grades. All I did was pray for school to end and go home play video games with my buddies. Rinse and repeat until I finished high school.

I never made more than 3 friends, I was happy with them. Never even approached a girl before thinking "well my time hasnt come yet, fuck it".

What opened my eyes was that a friend of mine who is 2 years younger than me was being treated like a boss and getting chicks but me who knew him since day 1 know he is a total different person when the 'squad' is together.

Thats when I knew something was wrong with me and not with the world, I started searching, calling myself ugly, basically going to depression (not really but just to give you an insight of what I was doing).

I found TRP, joined a gym and during a year I had to stay home before going to college so I went from fat to skinny, started knowing what girls actually wanted, started acting differently, started taking risks, started learning new trades, started understanding how muscles and gym works, and all was good until I got into college.

Then, I had this chick after me like crazy and I wanted to get inside that pussy hard since I was and still am a virgin but I just didnt make a move and she was thinking I had rejected her.

That hit me like a truck, I stopped eating right, stopped going to the gym and just didnt do shit. Thanks to TRP I managed to be a lot social and make tons of friends but with girls it was different. I was called weirdo by them but not in a obvious way because I had hardwired into my mind that I wasnt made to get girls so they never want me so I rejected the whole world.

I partied a lot for the first time, and improved my style, hair style, all I was missing was some muscle and some other things such as fixing my smile (this summer!) and small other details. But I never ever ever approached or made a move on a girl EVEN when I was drunk I was affraid of them...

The girl I talked about earlier kept on trying to get in my pants and I wanted for her to do so but I just fucked up everytime, we went to the movies with some friends, I take her to her bus and 'fistbump' her out of instinct?! I cried after that moment because I just had no control over that. After a few of those moments she just thinks of me as a friend and I never seem to talk to her now and she just ghosts me.

This fucked up my brain and I started just not caring about myself and stopped the gym, the diet, the try-hard and just stayed all the time at my dorm playing video-games back with my squad.

I want to come back, I want to start going up hill again and not down, I want to approach girls, I see ugly guys get sex why cant I get it? I see hot guys not move a muscle and get pussy at their finger tips, why cant I get it? I had free pussy and I fucked it up why and how?

Im a train wreck, TRP changed my life for the better by far and I was hoping I could get a little push to get it back on the right direction. Thank you for reading this.