Pfff Since discovering red pill... man I'm really stuck. I dont fking believe in this world. Im still wondering if it is true or nah? Im a overthinking? Everything seems true. Like wtf.

Written with ritalin

Like I just meditated 30 minutes, and everything clicks. When being mindful + discovering red pill.........

Im still in high school tough. 18 years old...

Wow....

Might just be the pill idfk.

Im just overthinking. Hopefully.

I just wanted to post this btw.

Is the red pill legit? Why dont I want to believe it. Sometimes I wished i just was blue pilled but then I think naah man, these bp days were horrible too. Always wondering why this why that? Now you know the truth... you just cant? Aaah....

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? I always was aware of the red pill tough, just didnt know the term of it. Now I that I discoverd this I finally could find something I could reason with.

But happy to have written it man. What do you think? Why do I feel guilty about it, Im dont feel guilty for discovering it, because I always was aware just didnt know fully. But why?????????????

Sometimes I think im just fk delusional?? But then.... Will just post it pff... could write endlessly