First post, I will get better at writing and formatting. Found TRP a few months ago. This is a long one, for those of you who can spare a few minutes and help me out, I appreciate it.

TL;DR Approached good looking girl. Frame crumbles and her attraction to me fades throughout the night. Need help understanding what went wrong and why.

https://imgur.com/a/rQie51v (yes, I have started hitting the gym. only been going for a month)

6th ever cold approach. Game/frame is still abysmal. This girl was CRAZY in a bad way.

I approach this girl and she is instantly very open. We start talking about several different things, but I did not sexualize(still nervous). We walk to the end of the mall and we sit down together. Talk some more about random BS. Strong IOI's. Playing with hair lots, good eye contact, facing me, smiling lots. I realize I am wasting time by not making any moves. We stand up and I twirl her, then we decide to go do something. As we leave the mall I tell her to hold my hand and we do until we get out.

We go to her car and this is when I start to understand. Car is fucked in the front where she crashed days before. Trash everywhere, she immediately starts smoking weed and drinking champagne. Tells me she lives in her car. We drive a couple minutes away to Target. We are sitting in the back of the parking lot listening to music and she's smoking again. We are smiling at each other so I pull her chin in and we makeout for about 10 seconds. To which she giggles and says "good kisser" but stops making out with me.

From here I can literally feel the attraction fade by the minute. I was a terrible mix of simp/dgaf. I would validate one moment and then ignore the next. I would do as she said and then refuse to do anything she told me(I had a hard time knowing what to ignore and what to react to). This is the first time I have been able to try TRP theory with women and I flopped. (Old habits die hard)

Examples of fading attraction:

We were in Target and one of the workers tosses her a stress ball, which she puts in her bra, (she was wearing a pushup bra and a jacket) and I said "I'm gonna take that out later" and she looks at me and says "With your mouth?" and smiles at me. I say the same thing ~35 minutes later (frame has been crumbling) and she says "No you won't".

I go to kiss her a second time, maybe 25 minutes after the first time and she turns away.

She stopped holding my hand shortly after that and even started to get weirded out when I would touch her, even though we had already kissed and been touchy. There are several more but I'll stop there.

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Throughout the night I would be "alpha" for short periods by ignoring her/not showing as much emotion/telling her to do things on her own(she was bitching about the AC telling me to change it and I told her to do it, or asked me to pay for her ice cream which I did not) and honestly when I did this she stopped being bitchy and didn't complain. She asked me to pay for her ice-cream and I said "you can get your own" and that was the end of it. She got her own and then came and sat on my legs on the couch since I had them extended from end to end even though me touching her was weirding her out before. She even scooted closer to me and touched my legs. She asked me to grab food off of her that she had dropped on her inner thigh. She fed me a bite of her ice-cream a couple times. However I was not able to sustain these things for long. As soon as I showed any sign of weakness(doing what she asked, explaining, validating, etc..) she would start bitching and not smile at me/touch me.

It was painful guys. I have thought for a while now that attraction is based maybe 80% on looks(i dont feel very attractive most of the time). I looked the exact fucking same the entire night but was placed ever deeper into the friend category. I could feel myself fucking up in almost every interaction and being the same loser I used to be. Fuck it sucked. Implementing game and strong frame seems so difficult. I am finally starting to see how psychological attraction is.

Onto the craziness. I suspected ADHD and BPD. Couldn't go without music, nicotine and weed. Would literally start freaking out if music wasn't on. Would get pissed in an instant and then be happy again moments later. Like we are sitting in a restaurant parking lot and she calls herself a retard and I laugh (it was fucking funny) and she gets pissed and says "Take me to my car. You can laugh with me but not at me" and so I start headed that way. LITERALLY THREE MINUTES later we are almost to her car and she's dancing in the seat next to me smiling at me offering to pay for a hotel for the night, saying how she wants to hangout and doesn't want to sleep in her car again. I didn't comment on it and dropped her off anyway.

This post is already way too long I can't fit everything in here, a conversation with someone would be much easier. There are many others things I could write about this night that I could ask for help on.

I need help implementing TRP strategies and understanding why attraction was lost. I know I was fucking things up. And I want to know what I could do better next time. It really sucked to be categorized as a friend again. I have just started my TRP journey but damn I feel like the same guy. I've read Sidebar. I listen to podcasts. I acted 90% like I would have before TRP. I feel like I will always be a loser because that's all I've ever been. I have no abundance. I have brittle frame and weak game. I know that this girl was crazy and I probably shouldn't take this experience too seriously, but damn. This girl was crazy and I still blew it. Not even in that I didn't have sex, but the simple fact I could not sustain attraction.