Basically I want to get my first sexual encounter out of the way. It is a physical need similar to food and water. After 24 years of virginity, my comparative lack of sexual experience is the biggest fuel to my anxieties.

I have approach anxiety, insecurities that tell me I'm not good enough, and a fear of trying to talk to women because I've already convinced myself they will be disappointed by me.

Yesterday a girl asked me out on tinder twice and I shut it down. I wanted to go, but I just figured her expectations of me were too much and I wouldn't be good enough.

Anyway, I understand why this is all irrational thinking. But my insecurities from the past decade don't just disappear over night because I started working out(lost 80ish pound over the last 18 months and still have the fat guy insecurities) and focusing more on self-improvement.

Is fucking a prostitute likely to help breach my performance/experience insecurities? I hope that getting sex out of the way will help to take the pressure away and cultivate more of a dgaf attitude regarding women. Also, I just need to feel physically wanted. I think that would boost my confidence considerably. Worth it for the experience or hold out and try to conquer my first vagina organically?