Dated 1.5 years. Got caught cheating twice (it was my first relationship- I had to mature. Not proud of this.) She stuck by me through it. We were fighting alot and I drunkenly dumped her and ghosted for a week (about 6 weeks ago.) I came back apologizing and sent a few long cringy texts apologizing and saying how I've been working on myself (I have been at the gym every day and getting more focused in other areas.) She was excited at first but I wasn't sure if I actually wanted her back so I was kind of cold. Then she went cold on me and I went into chase mode (justified in my mind since I ended it and she used to say I would never fight for her.) We've exchanged a few more texts since then (more beta cringy ones from me. smh.) She didn't seem real interested so I told her in my last text a few days ago I was gonna work on myself and telling her to be good and keep killin it (another beta text.) She didnt reply to that one- is this shit dead for good most likely? I obvi. won't ever reach out to her ever again but I wanted to keep her around- she wasn't bad at all and I need to be focused on work I don't have time to pimp new hoes right now.