I am new to the redpill and want to change myself to be a better person and more attractive man. I have been with my LTR for almost a year. She is a 9.5-10 platinum blonde. I know I probably do a lot of blue pill stuff with her Cuz the pussy blind sides me she is so dang fine. Anywayz I come back home from being out of town for two weeks and we go out to the movies. Everything is fine untill the drive home after the movies. As I’m driving she says to me make a left here and I said no I’m going straight it’s faster. Then all of a sudden she flips out on me and starts yelling at me saying this is the second time you don’t listen to me. You need to listen to me when your out with ur lady or else this is not gonna Work blah blah blah. Just screaming in my car making a big scene. I was very surprised for her to get so mad over something so small. She calms down and then when we get to her place she is like ur not coming inside just drop me off here. She is like you are not invited to come in yelling and screaming at me. I drive away and stupid me tried calling her after I left which she didn’t answer. Then the next day she texts me saying “understand that when I’m mad I want to cool off.” “When you are not invited over you are not and you have to respect that and give me time to cool off.” I say ok and a few hours later I think the fight is over and invite her out to go get a slice of pizza. She flat out ignores me. Then I called her once and no answer. At this point I decided to Intiate the soft next and she texted me the next day my phone wasn’t working properly blah blah blah. I didn’t respond since I was soft nesting. Today is the 5th day that the soft next is Initated and she texted me this morning

Her- “Ok look I wanna tell you something. One day after we fought I felt like I needed a break and my mind just came to blank and I don’t know how to explain it I just gotta tell you. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you and I realized I was just not happy with myself anymore. I just didn’t feel like I was loving myself and I just pushed you away I’m sorry. I don’t mean to hurt nobody. I hope you understand.”

What exactly does she mean by this?? Is she still interested in me Cuz I defitnely I wanna fuck her at least 1 more time. Should I stick to the plan and re intiate like nothing happened when the soft next is over?? Or was she branch swinging or is she not into me anymore?? All comments are appreciated guys and Thanks. How did I fuck up and where I can I improve is appreciated as well. Thanks guys.