Was doing some asktrp reading, when I encountered a thread about end game/old school trp and then I saw this comment

Beta Bux", meaning an effeminate man who is generally unsuccessful with women until in his 30s, when he marries a used up girl because she actually gives him the time of day, which she only does for financial security, having run out of options by riding the "cock carousel" and exploring her sexuality. These girls will generally have "low sex drive", but in reality they're just unattracted to their bank account husband in comparison to the "alphas" she fucked in her 20s.

Thats literally me right now. I am not sucessful with women AT ALL. Like I keep having this TRP mindset through the day thinking things like "I cant be nice..be stoic, etc" but then I feel like I just look butthurt. I lift alot and look pretty yolked for my age(19), but regardless it hasnt helped me as much as I thought.

I think I am actually still a BB. I act like a beta to my boss, older people, even co workers who arent necessarily my boss but they have been there longer, even ugly fat girls FFS!!. I keep making excuses in my head like "oh thats my boss, oh well I cant be mean or she will complain about me..etc.

I just want to establish more SMV and get laid. All the super hot chicks in my age group are fucking all of the Alpha fux and most of them are not even as good looking or jacked as me..they just have SMV and game.