Reforming omega from the west coast here. First 19 years of my life were totally oriented toward school/grades (brown parents conditioning played a huge role here), I had the social skills of a homeless person, and I gave almost no thought toward pursuing women (am a virgin). 1st year of college was the same. Did really well at a tough school as a pre-dental student, and had a small awakening, realized I was a loser, and strove to be better. I joined a fraternity in my second year. It's brought me a lot of joy, I've had a lot of fun, and made some new friends, but I've realized some things.

I've drifted away from whom I considered my "best friends" in freshman year, and as the only second year in my pledge class one year ago, I made good friends, but I don't have anyone who I could consider as a "best friend" other than possibly my "fraternity big brother" who graduated (but still keep in touch with). Although I've had a lot of fun with the fraternity, it is unfortunately among the bottom tier ones (the school has 20 something chapters), so that has wrecked havoc on my status compared to a lot of other guys. Lastly, although I've made friends within the chapter, my status is unfortunately not very good. I'm frequently the butt of a lot of jokes. Some of this is my own doing because I gave too much of a geek/nerdy vibe during pledgeship, and was generally very awkward. Some of that still persists, but I'm much better at not being nerdy and awkward than I was before. However, a few of the guys still give me some unwarranted shit. Fwiw, I can number-close with girls pretty well (about 90%) who show up to our occasional parties. I don't think I could ever be seen as "alpha" within the chapter. A few people in my pledge class and a few of the older guys seem to see me as a second-class citizen (one of my pledge brothers and his girlfriend have started treating me like shit whenever they see me), and would do whatever they can to prevent me from that sort of thing.

I'm not trying to complain. The friends I have made, and the good times I have had in the chapter have made it mostly worth it. The type of mindset and life I had before it and before college was pretty pathetic, and I needed much more balance. However, I am not in a very optimal situation, and I'm here to know whether to just strive for general self-improvement and work on game after college, or try to salvage my chapter/virgin/game situation.

Since discovering TRP 3 months ago, I've also done the following things:

  • lifted and nearly doubled my strength on compound lifts (switched to a splits routine now from a full body one)
  • gained about 10 pounds (I'm 6'0 and went from 160 to around 170 lbs)
  • learned to cook some new meals
  • started reading some books (mostly historical stuff though)
  • been more outgoing at social events and been able to have more fun
  • fapped less
  • stopped gaming and watching most TV shows (gaming I've mostly grown out of, and as for TV it's too hard not to see the bluepill conditioning in every show)
  • practicing game in different situations (at bus stops, with girls in my classes I hadn't met yet)
  • this one's negative: been much more upset with the world and how history has been grossly manipulated (mostly out of this anger phase now though). I still get upset when I see HB 7+ with other guys I know, but I'm working on getting over that.
  • maintained a 3.9+ gpa so far (though this was there before finding TRP)

After typing all this, I think maybe I should focus on game and self-improvement, but put more emphasis on the latter, and get better at game as college ends and before med/dental school starts. I hear its pretty fucking awful for betas, uglies, and other undesirables in professional school, not just with women but with how everyone in the school treats you. Anyone care to comment on that?

Any honest insight about my situation would be appreciated.