Body: Ex whom I got oneitis from tried to contact, I did something I never expected myself to do - cut it off.

So, i recently talked about my situation on the ASKTRP, and to sum it up, I was with a LTR with a girl for a few months, followed by breaking-up and then connecting again etc. I had become a real beta in a lot of aspects and she probably lost interest.

Even tho it was my fault for being beta, she had some really bad traits that were only covered by how hot she was. I now know that I could have "made it work" had i been alpha enough, but she was no LTR-material anyway. Problem was, I caught oneitis hard and couldnt let go. After about three weeks since we last spoke, she texts me asking

"am I bothering?"

Now, if she was another girl to me Id be fine plating her, since as I said she's really hot and we had an amazing sexual connection. HOWEVER, I am 99% I am not yet cured and will fall back to my old ways if we start hanging out again, even if it's just for sex. So I know right there even tho I have a chance to fix my BP and maybe get a really good plate - even try to be a true alpha and get the LTR back, I shouldnt. Because even me thinking about LTR'ing her again after what I went through shows I still have feelings. So I reply:

"yes".

She answers that she "only wanted to see how you were doing". I do not reply. I think it through. My mind and 'heart' (dick?) struggle, but today I call her after university.

<<this isnt going to work. I tried giving you everything, you cant just come back like you're ordering and ask for "a slice of validation" or a "pocketful of interest". We couldnt have a relationship as it showed. And Im not gonna be the one you call after you discover someone else just wanted to fuck you and didnt love you, or when you argue with your parents, or when you're feeling bored. Im not gonna be your emotional validation, cause I dont think I deserve this. I will move on and so will you. So dont do that.">>

Now, I may have said a couple of more things, here and there, but that's the jist. She kept agreeing and closed with "You're right, im sorry, Im not gonna text again". I hanged up without replying to her good evening wish.

I know I probably showed too much emotion and neediness - maybe I should have been that ditached, idgaf alpha. But I cant, at least now, with this girl. So I think I did the right thing by being honest with myself and cutting her off.

What do you guys think? This is really hard for me, so I really hope I did the right thing.