27 male EU beta here. I feel like I'm slowly but steadily losing my mind.

I'm putting the work in and I'm improving myself : I'm going to the gym, started a new course, learning to play the guitar etc etc. I also devoured almost all recommended TRP reading and books.

But still, I haven't got any in a long time, and to have those primal needs unfulfilled for such a long time does things to a person. (no I'm not turning into another elliot rodger).

But I do feel like it's making me needy which is an attraction killer in itself. And I'm starting to behave in irrational ways. I have a female acquaintance that I always viewed as her orbiting me and I've started to hit on her, only to regret it the day later. Not only that, I actually care for her and I feel like an asshole for toying with her emotions because I have zero sexual interest in her. Maybe I just need the validation.

So as you probably can tell by my incoherent post, I'm very confused right now.

Guess my question is : how do I kill my desire? or : should I kill my desire?

I have absolutely no interest in MGTOW or going monk mode anytime soon.