I have read a lot of the material suggested on TRP (sidebar, HTWFAIP, 48LoP., visiting the thread daily for over a year, etc..) and internalized the pill and fully have the inner belief and can see through the redpill lens.

But, I have the difficulty of applying it. I can't change my inherent ways. or force myself to change in the moment, it feels inauthentic and not my personality.

Recently, I've been trying to but don't seem to get the results and get angry because of that.

Can anyone related or help on this?

I am an ISFP in MBTI if that helps