Hi M(26), ex girlfriend (F31) still wants to be with me and i'm not sure i want to come back with her. I fuck other woman on the side without her knowing and lie a lot to her. She doesn't see my friends or familly and is sad that i don't want her in my life. I do have difficulties with emotions (ADHD). I have a hard time telling the absolute truth about my intentions with her. The thing is i can't let her go. It just feels like every time i try to push her out she manages to come back (i'm missing inner game here). I feel like i don't want to be attached and i'm working towards being a better self.

Feels like a one itis When she ask if we are together i try to avoid the subject cause i don't know if i want to be with her again. Feels like i'm wasting my 20's

I'm seeing her tomorrow to talk about what we are, how should i handle this?

Thanks