In the past two weeks I noticed my ltr losing some attraction. We stopped having as much sex, she had stopped getting as wet as she used too, a lot of extra shit test and so on.

In retrospect I looked at my self and felt like because of stress at work etc I was starting to fall off the wagon and get a bit comfortable with missing the gym etc. It’s only been 2 weeks, but regardless. Told my self to get back to the gym, focus on my self, get busy.. for my self.

Problem is well, today my ltr was being needy when I got home. All sweet, and what not. Basically trying to get me to have sex with her. I got hard, and we had some foreplay... but when it came time to it I just wasn’t getting hard. We got clothes on and went to bed, she asked me if what was wrong, I just said I felt tired.

My problem here is that not getting hard is messing with me mentally. And I’m having these thoughts of, well shit attraction was slipping and now you can’t get it hard either. It’s pushing me into this blue pill mindset where I feel like I’m fucking up.

How do I go about this now? Act like it didn’t happen? Shit idk. I like this girl, but I don’t want to think this way.

TLDR: couldn’t get hard after starting to work on my self again.