So awhile back, in the beginnings of my current LTR, she was adamant about knowing my past. I slept with one girl before her and was pretty ashamed of that. I made up an entire past full of girls, 8 of them. She wanted to know everything, how we met, how long we were together, their names... everything.

I didn't know what else to do. She gave me nothing but full honesty and I gave her nothing but lies to make myself look better. Some of the girls were pretty good looking and made her feel extremely insecure since I claimed they were LTRs too. And that I loved them.. so that made her feel extra shitty

Yeah, the lies are pretty crazy and fucked up. I didn't have to lie to attract this girl. She's like a private investigator at this point constantly catching me in my lies one by one. I've somehow managed to lie myself out of it more and I hate every single second. I never thought she would go this far into detail. Once I lied, I could either tell her and destroy any shred of credibility I'll ever have or keep the lie going.

I'm not really sure what to do, should I come clean and end the relationship? I don't think she will ever forgive me, trust me, or anything. I'm afraid that since she has gotten too close with my family and friends, that I'll lose them too. I can't even enjoy myself anymore because of the guilt. It's a very childish thing to do, lying... I suggest against it. I don't think I can keep the show up any more, she writes everything down now. I'll never lie again because it is honestly no fun watching the words you say and double checking yourself constantly.

I'm no worse than your average post-wall cumdumpster. I don't want to waste anyone's time anymore.