So a bit of context. I am a male in his mid twenties who has fluctuated between a fair amount of success over the course of my life. I was diagnosed bipolar, and I am starting to become convinced that my ideal approach through life may be a MGTOW approach.

I recently went through a downturn due to a medication issue which caused me to lose a well paying corporate job. Within a few weeks I got dumped from a LTR. Thing is, this isn't the first time I've seen the light switch effect in action. I go through this literally every time I swing down in my bipolar cycles.

Now frankly, I'm thinking that LTR are logically not worth it. I can basically guarantee that a depressice downturn is guaranteed on a long enough timeframe, as mediciations do not cure the condition, but simply limit its effects. And if I will be dumped after every cycle, then there is no point.

But in truth, hookups and plate spinning do not appeal to me. The effort involved, even if it is low, ultimately distracts from more engaging pursuits. Why would I go hook up when masturbation is more enjoyable, and I would have more free time to work on coding and hobbies? If there is no emotional attachment, I am uninterested. But I cannot sustain this without occasional bouts of weakness where I will break frame her light switch will go off.

So in short, should I simply focus on living the red pill lifestyle as a way to focus on self improvement and maintaining my own health, but disregard the pursuit of women? I don't want to accept a defeatist attitude, and I refuse to fall on mental illness as an excuse to not achieve my potential. But with every project and goal I have, I can shut down for a while and pick up where I left off. With women, they are unable to remember that these cycles are fleeting and will pass if given a few weeks.