This feeling is all too familiar with me and I need to put it to a stop real quick.

Shit just goes over my head and before I know it, I am left with my thoughts and me beating myself up over it. More of a "what the fuck, dude...you should have seized the opportunity to get her number, flirt more, etc etc. It's driving me wild.

For instance, I am a student in college right now that just moved into a student apartment near campus. Within the first week, I've had multiple scenarios where a girl is eyeing me up and down in the gym or lobby, or even simply starting a conversation on the elevator. Just a couple minutes ago, a cutie came down to the front of the building with her dog and the dog instantly gravitated towards me and wouldn't leave my side. So I started chatting up about the dog and making some small talk. She seemed to be enjoying it, said nice to meet you and we parted ways. Now, oblivious to me, I should have taken the golden opportunity to make some type of move or implied man-to-woman more.

And now I'm stuck here baffled of how things go over my head so much and I only realize thereafter.

This is something that my family (mom, dad, brother, sister) gets on me about all the time when we're out. They see women eyeing me up and down, being flirty, towards me and bottom line, I want to fix this for good. To take actual action to better my dating life. Just to be more aware and in the moment in general. It seems I lost this flirty vibe about me in the past couple years that I want to get back.

I apologize in advance for the rambles, just needed to vent and get this out there. Will ponder on later and write down my goals in what I want.

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Cheers