I just can do it. I can’t unsee it. Its been five years. Many girls later, Im almost 21, and yet here i am, in a constant state of distrust, disgust, & simply not giving a fuck about them.

I can’t do it. I WANT to be happy but i’m always watching, always cutting off, always ignoring, and i’m starting to think i’m crazy.

I don’t know where i’m getting at.

Just. I’m always on guard. I hate it, but if i don’t watch my back, who will? Mom & dad won’t be here forever.