This girl is taking up so much space in my end. I'll be at work and randomly think about her and feel all depressed and shit. We split up like a month and a half ago- I dumped her than ran back and made myself look like a total beta. She seems to have moved on but I dont know since I blocked her on all social media and she lives 3 hrs away. I can't stop thinking negative self talk like - "you fucked up something so good," "it's going to be so much hard work to find another girl like her and with work I don't have the time for that," etc.

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How do I get over this besides time? I've been in the gym almost every day since we split- it's crazy cause I feel my body getting stronger but my mind getting weaker and more volatile. Did I fuck up big time by ending it? I was comfortable for sure but we had problems that stemmed from my infidelities. She always said I didn't love her as much as she loved me and so I reached out with a couple of long texts to try and show her I actually did but I just made myself look weak I feel like. Shitty situation because like I said I'm so busy with work I keep thinking I don't have the time to find a new bitch and make her my ltr. At least that's the story I'm telling myself now.