Hi all,

I am here to seek direction. I am in a very bad place, even though I have invested a lot of time reading and learning, I can't seem to put any of it into action in the long term.

I'm 32, I have a decent job and make good money. I have a decent lifestyle. I have a decent home, I rent out property, dress well and often travel. Physically I am average, if anything maybe a bit fat.

I haven't been in a serious relationship before and I have got to the point where I am becoming a "beta orbiter" around beautiful girls, who are taking advantage of me. I am literally spending 100's to make them smile. At the moment there is this one girl who I have put on a pedestal and I literally run around like her puppy buying her stuff. It makes me sick to my stomach but I still do it. And I know she's looking elsewhere for a sexual relationship, it hurts, but I can't get away from it. I don't even want a relationship, it just makes me feel good to be around her. I can't seem to escape her or this type of behaviour. I have tried watching vidoes on self worth, read books like No More Mr Nice Guy etc and whilst it works in the short term I find myself falling over.

I honestly don't know where to go or what to do at this stage. Any advice is appreciated.

Thank you,