I feel like a total chimpanzee. My fwb is absolutely more redpilled than I; i’m basically the female plate that wants a relationship and will let you fuck them because they think it could happen eventually.

I’ve been hooking up with this girl for over a year now. We meet up 1-2 times a week and have incredible sex sessions, and we hang out for hours and get food and talk. Occasionally we meet up and do activities with no sex. She is beyond my type in every way physically. I was obsessed with her right from the beginning and started going insane (didn't show it) knowing she was fucking others and didn’t want a relationship.

after 5 months of fucking i laid it out that I wanted to date exclusively. She said "hmmm MAYBE, i definitely have strong feelings for you." Then several minutes later she said absolutely not and we need to go no contact.

I said OK thanks and we parted ways. crushed. I ignored her texting me immediately after and everyday after for a week (WTF SHE SAID NO CONTACT?) and blocked her everywhere. And then like a fucking bitch I met up with her again after 3 months. I reinitiated the contact(lol). Now I am in the same situation as before.

The worst part is she initiates dates, sex, brings me beer and weed, is clearly infatuated. Yet casually brings up not wanting a relationship occasionally. Very annoying. I lift, i'm in pretty good shape, I have a great job, several hobbies and interesting things going on. and now that she rejected me hard it kinda stings when she acts like my girlfriend. I bet she has 20 chad fwbs she's obsessed with

should i end it? I have tried hooking up with others and maintaining other plates, but i still just want her. it is crushing but i've never nut so hard in my life. I dont have the self control to limit the attention i give her, as i said im a chimpanzee