Sorry in advance for the bluepill text

My (22) LTR (21) went to a houseparty and got drunk and had sex with her classmate

As she leaves his house she calls me At 4 in the morning in panic saying she’s groggy etc saying she think she had sex etc she dont remember

Day after she apologies and stuff and i break up with her, she then calls me back saying she was raped and she ”Froze” during sex and it hurt. Saying she got drugged etc Then my mind switched to defending her.

Shes damaged goods and I dont look At her the same.

She went home with him, regretted it after and calls me.

I hold onto this girl like a fantasy that wont come through

Give me your perspective trp