I feel I might have strayed off the track, and I need your honest opinion.

I'm 28, when I disovered TRP around 01 Oct 14, I was in dead end marriage with a 33 woman which honestly was not good marriage material. I convinced myself I like her despite her being fat and not really feminine, I sucked at sex (didn't have a clue about domination or variety, came too fast) and overall I was a wreck. I tried to fix the marriage, around 15 Nov I decided it won't work, I'll never really be satisfied with her and will always look around, so I said we're divorcing, she agreed.

I moved in to my own appartment and started my single life - eating healthy, lifting, finding new hobbies, doing everything myself. My goal was to work on myself, deal with approach anxiety, spin plates or date non-exclusively, find out what I really want from a woman, what I really want from life, and then settle down maybe around 33 or so after I have experience in game, abundance mentality and so on.

In practice, I never managed to stop being monogamous. I've approached one girl, she was really into me, until she cancelled the second date I couldn't even think about approaching someone else, when she did I approached another girl, and again couldn't think about approaching someone else. Then I screwed everything up with the first girl because I tried to experiment (and ended up behaving like an emotional idiot), but it went all right with the second girl and now I find myself in an LTR with her (since 21 Dec).

I have 8x5 job, I am on leangains diet (16hr. fast/8hr. eat) so my schedule is wake up - go to work - get back - martial arts or lifting - cook a big dinner - eat. I only have like 2.5 hours of free time on week days in the very evening, or up to 5 if I skip lifting/fighting, and I also need to practice piano, learn cooking and so on, so I can really spend time with a girl once per week. Plus two weekends. She's a student so we can usually spend whole weekend together and wednesday evening, basically, she can be with me 100% of the time I have to spare. She's so turned on by me and so into me that I have all the sex I ever dreamt of, and since she's so much into me I feel less pressed to perform, so I can work on my issues and improve my sex skills with her with ease (I really need to work on lasing longer and other stuff from Sex God Method). She's feminine and cute, wants to hug me all the time - and I'm loving it. She likes to spend time with me the way I want it - we watch my favorite show together, we play fighting games, dancing games, we visit events, skate, cook stuff together and so on. I'm in the lead and she follows me.

So, at one hand, I feel like I went completely against what I have planned to do. I'm stuck in a monogamous LTR again, despite reading and being convinced by The Rational Male and other RP literature that preaches that I should go through non-exlucsive dating period to be really ready to establish a healthy LTR and, eventually, marriage.

On the other hand, it feels pointless to meet with her less often and start looking for someone else, because right now she's giving me all I ever wanted. I can't think of something I'd want from a woman that I wouldn't get from her. I really need to improve my sex life, clearing up all insecurities, and she's the best partner to do it with since she's so devoted to me (I also helped her figure out her small vaginismus problem, basically being her first that she could have enjoyable PIV sex with, so she's extremely attached to me for that reason as well). I also feel she's not the kind of girl that will agree dating with me non-exclusively, and even though I didn't promise her anything, didn't confess love etc., I think she considers our relationship exclusive and will feel betrayed if she finds out I'm fucking someone else.

Well, that's it. I feel that either I'm in a big delusion about the whole situation and wasting my time, or am just overthinking and being stressed over a non-issue, because I can't believe a realationship with a woman is finally working out for me, for the first time in 28 years.