I realized that i hate interaction with people. Most of the people just piss me off, and if i am invited to some event i just close myself off because the event itself is off putting for me. Now, i know that trp somewhat says that we should be more social/outgoing etc. But that is no who i am. I am not a person who will speak with anyone about anything. Its just not who i am. And at the same time you want the attention that comes with popularity, girls gravitate to people like this and most of the time peolle have easier life when they are outgoing. I know that i will never be like that - because at my core i am not like that. But at the same time i know that i want to be popular with girls...which by definition i cannot achieve by being who i am. That sucks. How do you deal with that ?