I started college two years ago and by that time I had already been into redpill for over a year, and I was in the process of de-betafication. First day at uni, look around for the hottest freshman girl and when I found her, I proceed to try and game her to the best of my abilities. I soon learn she has a new boyfriend but I decide to continue anyway. I decided to try out a long game sorta strategy, even though I knew it would be hard due to the smv this girl has (9/10 looks, intelligent, feminine, fun, ect.). To my surprise, I managed to hold absolute frame for a whole semester during which we met every other day and she left her friends to sit alone with me for an hour or two while having conversations about anything, always with a flirty undertone or outright flirting. I successfully to evaded most pro tier shit tests she threw at me. (keep in mind I was always dating other girls) Twice I almost closed the deal at parties but when I escalated beyond a certain point she flaked out of guilt (confirmation through freudian slip). This goes on and as more time passed the more I got attached to her since she became the only woman I enjoyed having conversations with (not thoughtful convo, just fun convo).

However with what little experience I had, coupled with emerging emotions, I started to lose frame and she became harder to game as she got more attached to her boyfriend (mainly because of both their families outcompeting each other as the best inlaws through holiday trips). I noticed this negative pattern so I "broke up" our "friendship" a couple of times just to come back to the same routine a week later. Eventually as time passed her shit tests became less fun and more insulting to the point where they became big indirect humiliating jabs. I got fed up and started a nonsensical argument over her rubbing in my face the fact her boyfriend was where I wanted to be (inside her). And thats the end of it, the attraction on her part (if there ever was any) is nonexistent now. I have been dating different girls throughout the whole thing which helped me have abundance mentality. However I cant get her out of my head, feverishly desire her, and get utterly paralysed when I see her on campus. What worries me most is that I think I´ve lost all future chance with her because of that jealousy induced rant.

Basically I need help analysing what happened and guidance on how to get the damned chick out of my thoughts and desires.