Im getting much better. Ive always been a shy guy. Even in my most Beta days, I never orbited girls because I never liked talking and wanted to save myself the embarrassment of being awkward. Looking back now Im glad I was this way rather then a beta orbiter.

Now Im 20 and have a LTR. A couple of these tendencies remain. I almost never text her. We hang out during the weekends but thats the only time we talk. To me its seems Beta that I dont text her, but its mostly cause I have nothing to talk about. My friends think its weird that I never talk to my GF (beta friends who want to spoil a girl). Is this actually not a bad tendency to have? Id enjoy seeing her more but I never make it happen.

Also I dont talk very much unless I have something funny or important to say. I feel like some people view this as beta but others see it as alphaish.

TLDR: I dont like talking