I see this a lot. Guys who are feminine, a bit small or short, not super bro-y or anything. Generally a bit more thoughtful and/or artistic. There's stuff written on this for sure but I haven't found anything super helpful. So here's a lil wall of text

My situation: white Hispanic mixed, early 20's 5'8'' slim build fairly athletic good face intelligent studies math anthro psyche politics philosophy whatever. Also I'm a rocker play guitar bass sing write music have a bit of a skinny jeans edgy noise rock aesthetic. I'm spiritual and have done plenty of drugs. I'm artistic as well as analytical. I've had some sex and girls think I'm cute enough. I'm damn funny in the right state. Done jacking myself off now

My main thing is I don't really fit in with frat bro types or just more 'basic' people in general. I'm a bit feminine (weak father figure who's neurotic, parents divorce when young, bit of a mamas boy) I had a good amount of friends who were girls in highschool so I was a bit feminized (though i got with most of them) and I was bullied a bit as a kid (who wasnt) and in general I'm a bit more sensitive and whatnot. Here's the thing too, for a while I was doubting my sexuality because I've also had gay friends who were into me and I've been told that I could easily go gay and do really well, I've done enough acid to recognize my bi-ness (as we all should) and my femininity, but quite frankly I wanna fuck girls, pretty damn badly, and I'm attracted to them more in most every regard (except some gay guys or more sensitive guys I can relate to more in being on the fringes of society, and I can also find them aesthetically pleasing).

Anyways idk, I don't want to sacrifice who I am and try to be bro-y or hyper masculine or anything, I'm just hoping that I can still be a bit feminine and be alpha/a man and not an eternal beta. Rather die than be beta tbh. (And yeah it's a mix of both but you know what I mean)

It's a lot to throw at ya, but thoughts?