Sorry for the explicit details, this is kind of weird. Been following and studying red pill for about 6 months now. I was already in a LTR before I discovered redpill but things have become a lot better since I’ve started implementing some of the changes.

So basically I have a weird question, every time me and my girlfriend have sex I have no problems with it but I seem to get these really strange thoughts. I always try to convince my self that we both have other partners and that we’re having a affair together. I know it’s fucked up but what does this mean? Is it just a weird fetish?

The girl does a lot of things for me and she is very submissive. I do have attraction to her but not as much as it should be, I speak to a lot of other girls on Snapchat and in person. I haven’t cheated but the thought of it excites me, in the past spinning plates kept me content but only for a short period of time. I think the thought of doing something I shouldn’t be turns me on or some kind of shit.

I know it’s a weird post and I’ll probably get some shit for posing it but I’d appreciate some advice.