In the past 5 years I've gone from a overweight 230 lbs. 5'7" lazy fuck to a 165 lbs semi athletic and full aware man( i like to think i'm aware) and I've gone through the natural steps of game increase, which leaves me where I stand, I have a friend with benefits, I have a girl that's in and out, since she's not from the area, she's in when she's around, but I'm still not satisfied. I have a full time job as an website content manager and I help produce and record bands in the evenings, I drive a nice car, but i still live with my parents (they need the help since my dad is disabled.) I don't feel sorry for myself at all, because there's nothing to feel sorry about. But why is it, that the girls I want, don't give me a second look, and the ones I have, I just don't really care about, they satisfy me physically but that's about it.