I'm in monk mode and it is difficult. Not difficult because I don't want it, but difficult because I forget some of the material I've learned and I find myself repeating things to help me get through the day like over thinking what people think of me then I realize I tell myself "fuck em. figuratively and literally from here on out."

So I've put off gaming women, I'm working on myself, working on my career, losing friends, and I'm a little unhappy. I want to do something fun. I used to build legos with my last LTR but they're expensive. I haven't been excited by any new movie out. I stopped watching TV year ago. I've been watching a lot of Bill Burr online as suggested on here and he's been putting a smile on my face.

TRP monk mode in practice has made me tense. I don't need a creative outlet I need a fun one. What do you do for fun that gets that inner kid/youthful energy in you out again? Preferably inexpensive and not something you have to invest in.