Been with LTR for around a year and a half, she was never a scrawny girl, she always had wide hips and huge perky tits. This suited me just fine, I've always liked thick girls and she was about as hourglass as you could get but she wasn't fat. She's been steadily pilling on the weight for a while now but I didn't really notice it until her once perfect tits started to get droopy. Now they look like shit and every time I look at them it makes me depressed because there isn’t no way I'm ever going to get to squeeze those firm perkers again. The thing is I'm not some little bitch that’s not gonna say anything to her; I've told her several times that she’s getting fat and she needs to stop stuffing her face and get to the gym. I've even tried to take her to the gym with me but I only managed to drag her there once and all she did was sit on a exercise ball for 45 minutes and complain until I just couldn't take it anymore and left. She was also a massive hoe back in the day and I can't stop thinking about how much of a better deal those randoms that fucked her at house parties got compared to me. I've given my commitment for a used up fat hog whereas they gave nothing to fuck a sexy slut with massive tits and great cheekbones. The fact that I'm currently on pct for a steroid cycle is exacerbating the situation and making me dwell on these thoughts to the point that its unbearable and I can't focus on anything. The thing is she's put on and lost weight in the past so I know she can do it and she's been promising me she will for the last 8 months but so far those promises have been empty. And even if she loses the weight she's never gonna be the same, her tits aren't gonna magically perk back up and she's gonna have loose skin/cellulite/stretch marks. This whole situation is making secretly resent her to the point where I can verbally attack her almost to the point where it could be labelled abuse. The obvious and simple answer is to fuck her off but the whole reason I'm with her in the first place is because we both have Herpes. For a person with Herpes abundance mentality is impossible, your sexual options are about 1% what a regular guys are. It’s hard for people to understand who don't have it; you're essentially a sexual leper for life. This is why I'm so hesitant to get rid of her. Apart from the weight gain and slutty past the relationship itself is fine; she's a nympho so I never have to worry about the sex drying up, she cooks, she cleans, she spends a lot of money on me, there has been no infidelity on her part (that I know of) etc. I really don't know what to do at this point; do I drag her to the fucking gym and force her on that treadmill? Do I secretly feed her weight loss pills and appetite suppressants? I am aware this seems extreme but I really don't want to break up with her; if we didn't both have Herpes I would have done it in a heartbeat but this whole thing has degraded me into a beta with a scarcity mentality. But the real kicker is that the scarcity mentality is completely justified because of the Herpes. I was so much happier before all this, I had multiple plates and I could actually concentrate on my uni work and consistently got good grades but all that seems like a distant memory now. And yes I am aware that I am acting like a woman, Clomid (a pct med) will do that to you. Breaking up is the last resort in this situation at this time so does anyone have any ideas on how to fix this? How to get her to lose weight? How to forget about her slutty past? Maybe when my testosterone returns I will man up and fuck her off but for now the future seems too uncertain.