I found trp to be very depressing. You have to build yourself up and do all these things to bang random girls. Pussy is just ok, some girls suck dick better than any pussy, and I can jerk off a lot better than some girls suck dick. As beta as it sounds pussy isn't the main thing that attracts me to girls its the feels they give me after sex, after cuddling, making and doing stuff for me for my approval. I like the bonding. If they can't ever love you and its only transactional it's takes the soul out of the whole thing. I'm just wondering how to happy like that in this world.