I don't know if it's a narcissist / psychopath thing but I can't stand anyone beating me at anything.

I'm lucky in that I'm 6'3 and handsome but I feel a compulsive need to be the best at absolutely everything.

I want to be the most confident, charismatic, muscular, dominant, smartest, richest, most powerful and most attractive man in every single room I walk into. This drives me to obsession, I abandon all morals and pretty much anything else. It kills me when someone beats me in any category. I don't even care about the girls anymore. I care more about money and power. I can't see myself ever being truly happy or content like this, but I don't know if I want it to change, my way of thinking since the red pill has changed completely.