Hello there asktheredpill,

I 'swallowed' the red pill about a month ago, this is after almost a year most likely two of reading. This is not a thank the red pill post but let's say that the red pill has helped me a lot. Hopefully i can continue to get help. Last saturday, this has been eating at me for a week now and yes my game as suffered as my head has been occupied.

Anyways last saturday i am on a roll, i am doing meet and greets i had gone for an early morning run why did i fail to try something new? I had met someone lets call him Mike. Mike called to me after i had just gotten done getting a girls number, he asks if i want to smoke a roach(weed). I say yes we start walking. I don't want to go to much into the devlop of the relationship, i can give more detials if requested, but fastward and i am driving around with him in my car

He starts to mention that he knows this girl that is going to fuck anyone that gets her high. So Mike is calling up his cousin to get ecasty. Keep in mind that i am nine-teen have never done a line of coke. He calls up the girl she seems into it, i play the game a bit. Everything is going fine but when it comes time to get money, i heistate.

This is the thing that has bothered me for a week. I have not heistted since swallowing the red pill. I am better then this. I am playing the game a bit saying that i am virgin on the phone & the girl seemed into it. Some may say i doged a bullet not fucking this girl & not doing drugs. Why did i heistate though? I heisted getting the money, after that it all went down hill, since no one deals well with a man that is changing his mind. The night ended horribily that i fear seeing Mike now. So why did i fail?