Hi guys, when I was younger I was really blue pill, I didn’t really have any parents and anyone to show me the way of the world. I had a really toxic relationship with someone on and off for around 5-8 years.

I would get friend zoned and be too unhappy in myself to go independent and seek someone interested. My brain was wired wrong I thought in the end it would just work. I got burned several times over this time period but it would happen again because she’d come back when I left and I was left thinking there’s a chance and chasing shortly after.

This caused me a lot of emotional and psychological stress with the embarrassment of other people, being let down etc. I was pure codependent and needy. Every time I let her back in I went backwards I’d just end up emotionally stressed and blame her and end up pushing everyone away.

I advanced in life and had some cool high value friends, later they began to distance and cut me off when they seen that I’d let her in my life and I was trying to be friends with her.

I then found the redpill and my brains been rewired, I also found Jordan Peterson and I’ve been studying his work and learning to tell the truth and face my problems, I’ve also started taking responsibility for my life and advancing. I have a good understanding on female nature now so I don’t look back in hate I just look back and think ‘she couldn’t of done that if I was a strong independent man’

Any-who not seen her in 2 years, I’m on my purpose, I’m with other women and enjoying myself.

I walked past her and was going to air her but we spoke and I basically explained that I was sorry for for my behaviour, I literally didn’t give a fuck this was my way of taking responsibility for my actions. I explained the way I see the world is different and that I went to a psychologist, that I was a ‘nice guy’ that I’m telling the truth and taking responsibility for everything and that I’ve become independent. It was unfair for me to be a nice guy and try become her friend then when she never fell in love with me or didn’t act how I wanted for me just cut her off and push her away. I shouldn’t of known better but I didn’t because bluepill, she was really good about it and listened to me in a car park but there was jokes and good vibes going on at the same time

I fucking smashed this out the park boys, I have no hate towards her because I see the flaw in my actions she ended up mentioning she’s with someone now etc and i mentioned I was seeing someone etc. I seriously smashed this and framed this well, you could see that I’m just a competent man now and not a little boy, I left I said have a good Christmas good bye and just left. Never to speak to her again, no reason, and I felt fucking great.

The big change here is that I’ve delivered something and not wanted anything in return, and I thank the red pill for this, nobody else would of taught me this unless I’d of gone to church.

She text me at midnight saying the following:

‘I appreciated your apology even if it was selfish... we go way back my oldest friend even if we haven’t been friends for the most part. I’d like us to be friends or at least civil but understand if you can’t be’

Why has she done this? Is this a shit test? A beta orbiter test?

I have no reason to have a female friend although they can open doors of opportunity for me, I have no interest in texting people and entertaining them. I’m not going to be friends I don’t think men and women can be just friends.

I’m definitely not going to say let’s be friends and I’m not going to say ok let’s be civil to please her.

She has a bf why is she doing this? Could my frame, growth and owning my shit of spiked this response?

Let me know guys, I know this is a long message but there’s a lot of development in this thread, I’m now free, independent, working on my purpose, learning, training and it’s all for me and my project.