Hey reddit, so I was seeing this girl for 10 months.

She wasn’t ltr material, and I don’t do relationships anyway so I tried to keep my distance.

Unfortunately I got her pregnant and had to spend a week with her while she got an abortion. She stayed at my house the whole time and we caught feelings for each other.

After the pregnancy was over, I went back to normal but she was very attached to me. I was still trying to keep my distance but this made it worse for her. She was obsessed with me, told me she loved me, and got kicked out of her house by her parents when they found out what happened. She was dependant on me and told me this. So I completely distanced myself. Only met her once a month for sex and kept telling myself I had no feelings for her and didn’t want anything serious.

About 2 months ago she told me she couldn’t do it anymore and felt like I’d been treating her like shit, ignoring texts, calls, even when they were about her being on antidepressants and begging for my help. I feel guilty because I wasn’t there for her, and I didn’t properly explain how I only wanted something casual and did lead her on a bit due to me being inexperienced.

She started seeing an orbiter who used to take her on dates before dropping her off at mine. Typical beta bucks. She’s been inactive on social media ever since and I still think about her. I feel guilty for pushing her away and not being there for her when she had no one, but that’s not what I signed up for.

Idk why I posted this, guess I just wanted to get my thoughts out and see if anyone had any advice.

I’ve been fucking other girls but I still find myself going back to this girl and wondering how she is, even though I know she’s trouble.