There is a theory I am thinking of implementing that would 1. make me happier, 2. improve myself faster, 3. make things more fun, 4. take more from life.

Here is the theory.

I will detach myself from my identity, and vice versa. I will create a new identity, person and his life. This new person is called X in my notes. X is also me. But X is something that exists in itself first, before it's relevance to me. I will disappear while X becomes me. Last sentence doesn't make complete sense. So go on. I will treat myself without getting attached. I will think of myself as an experiment or a conceptual identity. I will think of my life as a game. I will design, architect, make a person, which is my masterpiece (I love creating stuff). And this person is me. I will desensitize myself to myself generally. My brain will take more control. My emotions will lose their relevancy. My ego will be blindsided. I will change but my ego will be less of an obstacle. Since I'm creating this person, he has a life that I would probably approve of. We probably have similar tastes and desires. So I think it should be good. To sum up, I usually look at my life from within me. So in this theory, I will look at my life from a god's perspective.

I mainly want the fun of it. I've been a person who easily gets bored from everything. If I become desensitive towards myself, I can just focus on playing with and creating myself. I love creating my own products. I am not able to do that for career reasons for the near future. So instead, I can create myself and have fun with that. Self improvement, pussy, etc would be on autopilot. Kindof. So say you are a musician. You can work on creating your album whole day, right? I want to do something similar. Instead of music, material is me.

I follewed and implemented cult ideas and I can actually probably implement this theory too. Does this sound like its going to give me some mental problems? Like split personality or something. Do you know anyone who did something like this before?