It's been a while. I've tried to handle it on my own and at this point I need some advice. I can't help but keep reminiscing about how the last girl I was with "won", and how they "win" all the time. I broke frame, got angry, and she walked out. I understand now how important having a mission is, but this shit has been urking me for the past couple of weeks.

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I've read the sidebar, have a couple hobbies, lift 6x a week, and have even started cold approaching for the first time in my life, but as soon as the day ends and I'm about to head to bed, the thoughts start creeping up again.

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I've read on stoicism, "if I let it affect me, it will" but it's really not that easy. I've tried so much shit. I understand that I am in the anger phase now. The thought of fucking another girl angers me because of how easy they have it. They can switch their emotions off in a second and find another dude in that same second. Blah blah blah, life is unfair. I'm doing what I can to build a dope ass life.

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How do you handle this shit? The failures? How easy girls have it? How much shit just gets handed to them? Shit makes me feel like being a man isn't as rewarding sometimes. I always keep thinking "if only I did this, I could've put her in her place." Shit like that, again I understand that I am angry. Typing this out has helped already. Could use some advice.