Comments aren't necessary. I know what I have to do, I just figure if it's out there in public space, I'd work harder. I recently won my long battle against social anxiety. This was for talking to anyone or being in any public/crowded place. Now it's just AA. I've had 6 months therapy, but couldn't afford to attend any longer, but it wasn't the main reason for my win. It took going into situations uncomfortable for me head first, dealing with the physical symptoms (sweaty palms, shaky knees, fidgeting, crackling or high pitched voice), all the while reframing at the moment the best I could. I understand most of my problems involve inner game. I generally have a sense of low self worth (being broke doesn't help), and self image. It took numerous compliments over the years from both genders straight and gay for me to come to terms with my appearance. For some reason, in the past I've always dismissed them. I have to get used to the fact that if a girl opens you, game on; instead of what usually goes through my mind of "why is she talking to me?" My "first kiss" was at 23 when I was working in a restaurant by some Spanish chick that stole one.

I guess at this point in my life, I find myself over thinking everything. I have the confidence to approach people now, but my years of none existent experience in social situations have left me socially awkward. I'm not here to learn how to pick up chicks. I'm more interested in something I read a while back about how you should flirt with everyone. I've improved my first impressions by leaps and bounds. My latest comment was by a classmate during a conversation about personality tests. She kept insisting that I was the dominant type which struck me as odd. I also sort of blame my parental units. My mom for being over protective, and my father which wasn't much of a male role model. I guess I'm looking for guidance, but am unsure how to proceed since I consider myself a forever alone type. (I know, stop thinking that B.S.) I guess that's all of my mental diarrhea for now.

TL;DR: I used to have social anxiety, now I'm just awkward...