Im not a virgin,i have probably kissed like 40 girls on parties/concerts,had sex with 1 girl that i barely talked that my cousin presented her to me(30 min of conversation and we fucking) and 2 hookers,i used to be really depressed from 19-27 years old took a lot of anti depressents that killed my sex drive so i never pursuit a girl before,im 1 year off them and i feel like 10000% happier,way waaaay more social and more confident than before,my libido is back too,but the thing is,i have this deep fear that im going to die and never been on a date and trully get to now a girl that i like,i have no idea how to pursuit a girl,getting to know her,schedule a date etc,but my biggest problem is the desesperation and anxiety,how do i control this?i feel like this affects my game,im doing a hobby on the weekends so im interacting with alot of girls there but as a friend,i can feel 3 are into me,but i have no fucking idea what to do,how do i go from friend to dates and flirting?which one should i try something?all my experience comes from parties where the girl thinks im good looking i chat a bit and we kiss,i have 0 experience about building something more intimate and slow with someone,i feel really desesperate and i hate this feeling,i didnt feel this desesperation when i was depressed,my mind keeps telling that i will die tomorrow and never experience going on a normal date,i know it's pathetic but i cant shake this feeling