So, a few weeks ago I decided I had to do something to change my life since I was sure I could do better than what I get on Tinder/other apps... hell you have to fight to get an average girl on a date. So I had to accept that it's either keep doing that (unlikely), completely giving up (not a bad choice, honestly) or pretty much changing everything. I chose the last one.

I have never approached a woman before on day game or clubs/bars (I just dislike them, haven't gone to one in like 3 years, and when I used to go I just wanted do get drunk and spend time with friends). But I kinda accepted it's just the way it is, I'll have to go to one.

So I began to do what I had to do. Started working out harder, eating better, bought new clothes, got a haircut and bought a ticked to an upcoming party. I am even letting my beard grow a bit more so I can get a better cut in one of those kinda hipster barbers (in almost 10 years of growing/trimming beard I have never let anyone do it). Also reading a bit about game, since every kind of knowledge is useful right?

Seems like one of those successful stories right? But it isn't. Today one of those app girls told me she was going to a party tonight, kinda close to where I live and invited me. I am sure that had I gone, I'd get her. But after a long while thinking about it, I gave an excuse and said no. Ok, something bad happened today and I'm not in a happy mood, but it's an excuse anyway.

Also I've been looking at party websites and pics just to have an idea of what's going on, looking for clothes that might fit my style, haircuts, etc. But I can't help the fact that I look at those pics and have two different thoughts: 1- "That woman is quite hot. There's no way I'd get her" and 2- "Just look at those guys, I can't compete with them".

Like, I don't need to read game articles to understand that they are not perfect, have flaws, girls are just another human beings, etc. I know it. But those are the kind of thoughts that appear naturally, I can't help it.

Even increasing my SMV, I just can't see myself out there doing it. I know it's a self esteem problem. What can I do to change it?