No sex for 3 years now. Still unable to approach women when sober. I now all the theory behind seduction, i have watched hundreds of videos, have done hundreds discussions with my friends and im still a loser. Why? Because approach anxiety. What is this for me? Heart-beating and tremors at hands or lips. Oh and a fucked up past that never helped gain any self-respect, self-love or feel any kind of creating happiness to others. But i only say this because im trying to understand myself, not get pity from others.

And luckily (but not luckily enough) im a good looking guy. So today i was on the bus and after a while an angel enters the bus too. We had very strong eye contact for 2 seconds. This girl was so beautiful that it was like she saw inside my soul. So there i was thinking "i should approach her when she gets off the bus" and then my other shitty voice will say to me "look how beautiful she is, look how elegant she is dressed, your lifestyle cannot handle this girl, there is nothing you can provide to her". The girl got off the bus and i was feeling miserable again for not atleast trying.

I went back home and i made about three calls to three of my friends. These motherfkers havent get any sex for years too. I said "thats enough. Its not about getting sex, its about stop being a coward, its about expression, its about having the courage to reveal yourself, to do the thing that fears you but you clearly know that its the only way that youll be happy. We have to do something".

So i made a suggestion. Instead of trying to approach girls just to have sex, we will approach girls to become the men who have the balls to approach the girls up to the point we will be so calm doing this. I suggested that we will hang out on the streets and bars and talk to so many girls that the anxiety goes away.

No one accepted my offer. One of them even dared to say that see doesnt think about sex or getting a girlfriend and that studies are more important to him. What an unhealthy mindset.

...so why im writing all these. Because im talking to myself, thats why. Because today i didnt have the balls to speak to this girl at the bus. God knows how many girls like this i didnt talk to in the past. And also, i havent the balls to go out and approach girls alone. Im so insecure that i want a friend as a company on this process. I want somebody to be there to remind me not to take anything personal, not to make tragic out of this but only fun, to see somebody to fail and succed as i. But there is no one to be there with me even those that have the same problem as i do.

I always felt so anxious and uncomfortable about his, yet so excited, that only visiting another country would make me feel ok enough to do this alone.

Enough said. Whats your thoughts guys? Have you ever been in my position?