My first and only relationship was when I was 17 in 2009. I was shy as fuck back then so the fact that I even had a relationship was a miracle.

After that, I made out with some girl I was hanging out with in 2011.

8 fucking years would pass with no action at all. I spent those years overthinking how to attract women.

Finally, in 2019, I saw a girl I thought was so attractive that I couldn't resist. Went and cold approached her. She said she had a boyfriend, but that was the moment my life changed for the good.

I started cold approaching every day and got two dates, and made out with a random girl at a bar... My getting women interested in me game wasn't bad, but my dating game was shit.

This was evident when I began to use tinder. I learned the hard way of what not to do on a first date... Unfortunately, COVID-19 happened and I went a year without dating.

I'm late 2020/early 2021, I began to think I was done for... Suicidal thoughts were frequent. In June, I was actually the numbest I had ever been.

Then it happened. Got a date. Met her at a bar..went back to her place.. fucked. What did I do on this date compared to the others? I didn't try to seduce them..I just went for it..

Copied this formula and got more dates with other women.. began to date a girl in mid July, but in mid August, I'm pretty sure she's finished with me.... didn't have sex with her, but made out and cuddled...

While we dated only a month, it is the longest I've dated someone since my only relationship, and that is what is bittersweet.

It's bitter because after a month, she doesn't want me anymore. It's sweet because its proof to me that there are some women out there who DO want me..