Hey guys, today I'm supposed to go out in public and try asking people out. I was nervous about it when i went to sleep last night. I had these repeated dreams where i went around new York city asking random people to shoot me in the head for being ugly, asking random cops to kill me because I'm worthless and garbage, going to bars and getting rejected and made fun of by every girl in there and then getting up on a table screaming and yelling at everyone how much i hate them all, and how much i hate myself and that I'm worthless human filth and someone should really just kill me right there and be done with it.