I believe this has to do with this sub as it kinda relates to the "endgame" many of the people on here look towards - actually getting a girlfriend. I used to be a nerdy skinny guy, learned game 10+ years ago, and over time got success with women. At this point I thought of myself as a person who would want to get married young and have kids.

After getting a little success with women, I immediately jumped was in one relationship for 5 years. The break up was way overdue (she had cheated 2 years prior, hasn't been the same ever since and I couldn't forgive her, but I stayed because I was so afraid of being alone). Coming out of the breakup I felt crushed and unattractive, probably because I lacked confidence and more importantly an identity for myself and after around 6 months of going on daily dates and fucking everything I could (just to prove to myself that I'm desirable) I got into a second relationship.

I've been with this girl for ~2 years and we've had our ups and downs, things however calmed down and we're in a comfortable state of neutrality now. But around half a year ago, I started taking ADHD meds and for the first time I feel like I actually have some self-worth and I'm able to be happy with myself as a person without a relationship to desperately lean on. I guess my girl can feel that because I'm more focused on my grind and that I'm not as hyperfocused on giving her and making sure we're always doing entertaining stuff so she's never bored, like I did in the beginning.

I also can't help but think about how I want to fuck other women. She is down for threesomes with some of her female friends, but that's more like a once-in-a-while thing and I feel like I didn't get my hoe phase out of my system completely. I'm 28 for the record.

Two questions:

  1. Should I break up and pursue myself for the first time and go fuck more girls? I still want a family and children.

  2. Is any amount of sex with women ever going to be enough? Or is it true that once you unlock pandora's box and get good at flirting with women, nothing will ever be enough?