Hi guys,

I'm 23 years old and I'm usually shy when comes about talking to girls. Since now I thought it's because I have a medical problem ( my hands are shaking and I think my voice is a little bit awkward ). I know that if I don't try I don't have a chance, so I started to talk with girls on facebook. Because I didn't have the courage to go and talk face to face with a girl I find attractive, I thought it's better than nothing. Most of them didn't even responded, and some of them replied with some boring messages, but about 3 months ago I've started to talk with a girl and I think things went pretty good. I tried to make her laugh, made some sexual jokes and she didn't seem to be uninterested. She also asked me about some job advice, and usually we send each other some XO emoticons ( ":*" ).

With all of these my medical problem was in my mind and I was almost always stressed about "How am I going to tell her about my problem without being creepy?". Then it hit me. I was going to tell her when we meet for a coffee and make a joke about being excited that I see her, and that's why my hands are shaking. So after about one month I've started to ask her out for a coffee but every time she said that she is going home at her parents/ going in teambuilding, etc. I didn't want to be discouraged and I keep talking to her and try to ask her out another time. A few weeks later, because I somehow wanted to see her, I went at college knowing that she will be there and wait for her to come and have a smoke ( without telling her, you know... I was there by coincidence ). I just wanted to talk to her, even if it was just for 5 seconds and even if she was going to have a boyfriend or even if she wouldn't understand my medical problem and I don't know spit me in the eyes or something. I went to college, waited an hour but I didn't see her. Before I leave I text her asking if she is at college and she said that she broke her leg and she's at home. I was a little bit sad because I didn't see her but also a little bit proud of myself that I somehow have the courage to do that and wait for her for an hour.

But a little bit after that she didn't seem so interested, didn't reply to my texts ( even after 2-3 days) and when she does she usually reply with 2-3 messages and then it's like she disappear for 4-5 days/ a week. Somehow I understand that my medical condition may not be the main problem (so good for me) since she didn't knew that I have one but I'm so sad and feel like I can't get over it. It's like nothing good came from this. I've sent her a message about 2 days ago asking how is she feeling and if her leg is better but she didn't say anything and today she posted a story on instagram with 2 coffees and some cakes from a pub.

I'm probably too emotionally involved when it comes to this kind of things but I honestly don't know what to with this. I feel like it's my fault and I don't know what I did wrong. And usually I don't have the courage to try again for another 2-3 weeks.

In spite the fact I have a very good job, I like what I do at work and I'm pretty good at it I'm concentrating on girls and keep asking myself if I will be able to have a girlfriend one day and if it's worth to try again.

Thanks in advance and sorry if I made some English mistakes.