So realizing I’ve failed two IRL interactions that the women had initiated with me . First one, Grocery store. I was getting some seafood and helped her pick up something for dinner, she playfully said “you should let me get your number so you can cook for me just playing” Honestly she was very awkward and not my type but either way I should’ve entertained her. I awkwardly smiled and walked away. FAIL.

2nd event I had been working out, two women sat on the picnic tables next to me and offered me water. My eyes were closed so they definitely snuck up on me, I should’ve accepted the offer but I instantly said no. WTF! I tried to recover and tell them about my workout but I could tell I had lost my chance and didn’t want to get rejected by two women. FAIL.

I just recent gotten out of a relationship and I tend to do this self pitying behavior where I want to meet someone new but I don’t feel like I deserve anyone. That is until I get my confidence sky high and start the cycle all over again, but this time I refuse to hop into another relationship until I’m satisfied with who I’m dating. I’m not shy just can be unfriendly.