"I'm a Barbie Girl,... In a Barbie World."  

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Day Game: Back to the Mall

Nervous and exhausted. Mall had 75% less people in it than yesterday.

 

Helpful Inner Game

  • Heard something about the rage, letting yourself get frustrated that your approaches are bombing, so I focused on that some.
  • When I felt I was being too creepy sexual vibe I went back to my heart visualization (see Day 1) and imagined women extremely overjoyed and flattered, as detailed as possible. Eyes closed, laughing, hands over ribs because they hurt? Flattered, flushed cheeks, awkwardly looking down?
  • When I started doubting myself I visualized myself in 3 years after learning pickup and would say, "I'm the LeBron James of pickup. This mall is a layup."

  • When I felt I was too romantic/funny guy I imagined literally fucking her where she was standing.

  • Sitting at a chair next to a table? I imagined pushing her over the table, fucking her from behind, pulling her hair,.... naked, in a mall, in broad daylight.

  • Walking next to H&M looking at her phone? Pressed up against the glass, looking at me from behind on her tip toes, and yes,.... buck naked,... in a mall,.... in broad daylight.

 

Alright, Adventure Time!

Was nervous and exhausted for the first 10 minutes. Walking up a stairs with not many people around I saw a "curvy" asian woman and said

"Hey, did you know they have escalators here? *Crazy!"*

One down. Go.

 

I remember saying something stupid but was so tired I can barely remember. I'm going to count it.

Two down. Go.

 

In the middle of the hallways in the mall they have stands with people trying to sell you stuff. Got up the nerve, asked this woman (who I'll call Israel Woman)

"Hey, what is this?" pointing to the stand.  

She had poor English, something about a hand cream. She handed me this packet (looks like a condom wrapper).

 

Something something something "It's a piece of my heart."

 

I looked at it and said, "A piece of your heart? Moisture Complex creme? Oh wait, it says 'More Than You Could Ever Imagine' that makes sense." which is what it said on the sample.

 

She kind of chuckled and looked down as she kept trying to stick to her pitch.

 

She asked "Do you have a girlfriend?" obviously part of the pitch to get me to buy this stuff.  

"No, will you my be girlfriend?" with my arms stretched out like I was going to hug her.  

"I have a boyfriend back in Israel, he'd kill me!"  

"But he wouldn't kill me!"

 

I was really tired and went into spectator mode before finding a way to leave.

Three down. Go.

 

Started doing random silly shit:

  • Threw water bottle cap in the air letting it fall, trying to move my body and loosen up
  • Had too much water in my mouth, made a stupid face and tried to force eye contact with women
  • As a mother and daughter passed I pointed to her mother and said "She's cute!"
  • Guy walked past his girls to look over a railing to look at a sushi stand
  • I walked to the railing, looked down turned to the girls and said, "There's a lot of sushi down there!"

 

My personal best of being an idiot was seeing a woman window shopping outside of Dillard's.

I made a very serious face and said "Hey,..... I'm a Barbie girl,..... In a Barbie world,........... It's fantastic."

 

2 women walking by,

"Hey! Hey! Hey!"

They weren't stopping.

"We built this city!"

Pointed to the ground.

"We built this city on Rock and Roll!"

They walked right by.

 

Passed the same stand with Israel girl, coworker asked me "You work here don't you?" (part of her pitch).

I pointed to Isreal girl.

"I talked to her earlier."

Then blew her a kiss.

The woman I was talking to laughed but I was still nervous and awkward and have no idea if the others did, probably, whatever.

 

Now I'm Feeling Great!

but I can't find my car.

 

I walk around the mall for 45 minutes looking. Two different times a noticed a woman looking at me and I just said, "Dude!... Where's my car!"

 

I passed a sales guy and a woman in a department store, she started half dancing to the song that just came on. When she saw I noticed she said, "Oh I'm sorry when this song comes on,.."

I did the 'Get that dirt off your shoulder' and 'raise the roof' motions and she laughed.

 

I think this tallies to 6. Not sure.

 

Night Game: Same Crappy Bar as Yesterday

It was a long drive back and at first I thought "Well I did a lot today and there's always tomorrow you can always be a piece of shit" but I knew I had momentum and if I didn't at least try to get to my goal I'd be upset.

 

Pull up to the bar, lots of cars.

 

Walking towards it I noticed a neighbor I rarely see, couldn't understand him but he said he needed the score of a football game because he had $1500 on it or something.

 

I'm really nervous, jittery, hungry and out of it but I go in, wait for a score to come up (not sure if was even the right game) and walked back out to tell him.

 

Something about Carolina's defense being too good and that he's making a lot money. I said something. Who knows.

 

Walked into the bar, same shit as last night. People are either huddled around tables, or everyone's at the bar looking at the TV's. Every seat is taken. I had no idea or energy left to make an ass of myself.

 

I really could use some advice on how to approach this.

 

Takeaways

  • Online dating apps are a godsend. I mentioned this in the Day 1 post. Sending openers as quickly and as many as possible got my head right for cold approaching.
  • Having replies come in while I'm gaming is great reinforcement when I'm taking a break.
  • Meditation. The mental focus, awareness of my surroundings (and women) and the ability to control my emotions better are super helpful, not just in these outings but in life.
  • Visualization. Dear god this is great. The heart, hero and fucking visualizations (as I'm calling them) really helped keep my state in check.

 

Heart: Imagine them the happiest or most flattered they'll ever be.

Hero: Imagine yourself doing this after 3 years of doing pickup. "I'm the LeBron James of pickup. This is a fucking layup."

Fucking: Imagine you fucking the girl in the exact place and time you see her, in every nasty detail you've relegated to your online pornography collection.

These help me adjust my emotions (and actually make me smile, be more sexually intense or more confident).

 

Hey! We built this fucking city!

 

See you tomorrow.