Well seddit, i never expected to go this far so fast, i thought a k-close would be months or even years away from now, as i just discovered this place less than a year ago. Ill try my best to keep this short and concise.

I went to a dance music festival with a friend dressed in gaudy clothing, had a good time, met this girl, we danced and grinded a bit. I hit it off so well she basically asked me to ask for her number. In hindsight i was awkward as hell but still managed to leave a good impression on this girl.

The day after i invite her to do some photography in a park and she didn't hesitate to say yes. I planned to first go to the zoo in the park, then take some photos and finally go get drinks somewhere.

What actually transpired was her talking my ears off for most of the date and randomly roaming around the massive park. The gist of the conversations we had were about her passions, accomplishments and ambitions, i would redirect the conversation to this stuff a few times throughout the night. We completely missed the zoo and had to backtrack through some nice gardens where i tried to be more dominant in the conversation by talking about photography. She brought some beers which surprised me, so we drank a bit and fed some chipmunks in the park, i was a little tipsy which helped me open up more and speak louder. We eventually make our way to the zoo, which helped steer the conversation to a different topic.

We make our way back to the main entrance and the conversation topic goes back to finding a passion. I assert that i hope she finds her passion etc and i kinda fall flat at this point, i try to find things to say but i just go "uhm...."

Nevertheless i find a secluded bench to sit down and i talk about how we met and our mutual love of dancing and festivals. I bring up how she kissed me on that day and ask to give her one and we end up making out quite a bit.

I was a little clumsy but it didn't seem to phase her. It started pretty gentle but quickly ramped up to tounge kissing which she loved. She said i had permission to eat her face out, and i did, though i still held back a bit. Id say we paused twice and made out three times for a few minutes.

One thing i noticed was that every pause after id have to say something to escalate to get back, first pause i asked for her critique on my kissing, second time i ask her "What are you thinking right now?" she says "Same thing as you" aaand we resume, i ask if she would like her neck kissed and she's ecstatic. My lips are too dry and i ask her to do it to me, she does a wayyy better job and i start whispering flirty things to her.

The details are getting fuzzy now but at some point it was getting too cold to stick around and she had work early the next day, but i could tell she wanted to stay longer. I royally fucked up because i didn't ever figure out how to get home and she ended up telling me how. We parted ways at the subway, not before telling me "this may seem bold to say but if we had kids i think their eyes would be blue, everyone in my family has blue eyes but me" the subway shows up and i give her one more goodbye kiss.

I never expected any of this to happen, im still working hard on my inner game so dating hasn't even been my focus, but this girl was so easy that a clumsy fuck like me could get a k-close. There where too many moments where i demonstrated neediness and i felt like i didnt open up enough and was too quiet. We have so many common interests but im intimidated by how much shes done in her life, compared to my near NEET lifestyle that ive only started to break out of recently. She's 4 years older than me so that accounts a bit for extra life experience.

I still haven't texted her yet, i feel overwhelmed right now tbh..