On Saturday night, I went to a party of a friend I had not seen for a while since they moved schools. This is important since it meant that he now had two social circles.

Before I got there I decided that I wanted to be the first to meet everyone I didn't know there and to be the biggest, loudest and most interesting person there and just have a good time. This is something normally way out of my comfort zone but I realised for the first time I have nothing to lose. This was a big step for me since it was my first time being properly outcome independent.

When I got there I did what I said and made sure to meet everyone and remember their names (I later found out I'd been calling one girl the wrong name the whole night. Woops. I tried to laugh it off but I still felt like a fool). After a while I met M, I would call her an 8/10, but then she had the goth vibe going on which I find super hot. We talked for a while and enjoyed a drink and a smoke while enjoying the music and the end of the Brazil v Chilie game. In this time I made small amounts of kino, light hand touching, highfives, looking at jewellery. You know the stuff.

As tge night progressed I escalated my kino bit by bit until I finally reached a k-close (yay!). Now that I think about it I probably could have escalated further for an f-close, especially considering the language and body language she used with me, but drunk me didn't think about that. Oh well, I'll remember next time.

That brings us to here. I'm not sure how to go forward with this. Part of me is bitching out a bit, but I want to take it further. What do you suggest?